IM CRAZY!

So I realized when I do meet D, I really would never be able to compete with NM... he might be joking but I am sure his ass really like/ loves her. Although she is "family", there is something about her that he cant get out of his mind. YIIIKKKEEESSSS for me huh, but I will still have a relationship with him haha. There is something about me that I am sure if people knew me well enough would notice. I live in a serious fantasy world. I want it all but I don't at the same time. I wouldn't mind working a normal 9-5 business related job as long as I net (in my pocket) at least 70k per year. I would need to take care of my mom! I have work experience, well-rounded, and too educated not to reach that goal. I am getting side tracked, but I wanna party and have the celebrity benefits. I want to go to clubs with Jayz and Beyonce and be VIP, not on the crowded floor. I want to be invited to album release parties and sit with Angela Yee and her crew or even Necole Bitchie. Ms. Yee looks like someone I would want to befriend seriously. We share the same work ethic from my perception. Party all night but when 7 or 6 am hits she is on the train ready to go to work and that how I am too. I want to be at the VMAs, BET Awards, and Red Carpet events. I want that lifestyle but not necessarily the one with the fame. If it happens then it happens by association but that is not my main focus. I just want the perks and I am not sure how to do that. I am in love with this life and I feel like I deserve it and I should be able to have it. You have to know your self worth and I know its more than possible. I will  make this happen. Like for instance Drake had a concert in Miami and this girl named Baller Alert got to go.. I am not sure if she paid for it or if it was given to her but at the end of the day, I wasn't able to do that and I want to be able to make that decision for where ever I stay in the world. Like I stated before I know I am crazy but I really need this to happen. Gotta meet the right person or people, so God and Universe I leave this to you. I put it in the Universe! :)