Some nonsense I wrote 12/20/10 lol

Happy Holidays!

Christmas was relaxing and my Birthday is 2 weeks away! I found my dress and its sparkly... I will look fab!

I am writing this post because I have a few things on my mind. BET did very well this weekend. On Christmas Day, they had a Girlfriends marathon. I watched it from the time I woke up until the last episode at 4am. I was addicted and would like seasons 5 through 8. There are four characters and they all have completely different personalities which I love. I normally like a group of friends because that is how i travel. Joan, the den mother, always there for her girls, stressed, uptight, wants marriage and kids, but cant have a successful relationship. Toni, the gold digger, she is always looking or talking about money, she wants stability, considers herself the prettiest one, and self absorbed, conceited, and a playa. Lynn, the free spirt, she is sexually active, and organic. Maya, the ghetto fabulous one, she is married and has a son, hood but classy over time, and a very realistic out-view on life.

My friends would say that I am Toni. I would have to agree, but I am Toni in a funny way. Instead of the part where Toni is self-absorbed and selfish, replace it with Joan's character. I am the dependable friend. I am always listening to my friend's problems and providing the support they need, so take that horrible aspect away. Through out the years, I have come into myself and think I am pretty. I used to have serious issues with my look until I realized that I can't compare myself to others and enhance my beauty naturally.

So Toni had me thinking about myself. She wants a man that is going to make her feel secure. Financially and sexually. I see nothing wrong with that. Money makes the world go round, whether you want to believe it or not. I am a little bit more intune with Love so I would need that too but anyways, I need a man with money, scratch that I will have a man with money and I myself will have money. I am very good at being loyal and making people happy as long as I am happy.If i can get what want when I want it... you will be extremely happy. My stamina is very high and a lot of people have yet to know or experience that aspect of me. So i am going of on a tangent but the purpose of this was to ask if I need to deal with life differently.

I would love to have someone to share this crazy world with but it seems as if the people that I attract, I am not attracted to! This is a constant issue. I have people like KAPP Dex, but those are not my type. They are kinda but i am not atracted to them, how am I supposed to get down with the get down if I am picturing Trey Songz or Idris Elba. That is just wrong on so many accounts. You dont have to be fly where you make me look bad lol but you have to complement me and like i said. I think i look good lol.

But maybe this is a sign that i need to stop being "shallow" and the man of my dreams (money, loyalty, god fearing, and passionate) will come in a different package.

this will be my birthday song.....

clearly i want a better version but i loved this for some reason

2010 bday song, I HAD A GREAT NIGHT :)))


JUST A LIL EXTRA...

music to my ears

97 Seconds....

I love this man. He is crazy and interesting. He featured my favorite song off of his album, so you know I had to put it up on my blog. I don't know if he worships the Devil, if he is bipolar, or just creative, but whatever it is it has me hooked. I hope he isn't into that Devil shit and if so God please forgive me because the music is amazing....Enjoy

Glee

I LOVE GLEE! AND BECAUSE I CANT CONTROL MYSELF I AM GOING TO GET ALL THE CDS.. THEY ARE ALL THE SONGS SUNG BY THE GLEE CAST! I JUST WROTE THREE PAPERS TONIGHT BECAUSE OF THEM SO I THINK THEY DESERVE IT LOL

BELOW IS THE EPISODE THAT MADE ME WATCH EVERY EPISODE IN SEASON 1 AND CONTINUE TO FOLLOW IT
THE EPISODE IS CALLED HOME! ABSOLUTELY AMAZING AND I SHED A TEAR...